Treasures

I've had so many thoughts over the past few days. 

I was sitting on my front patio listening to my kiddos chatter about their day at school and watching them twirl around the lawn as the first signs of spring had finally made their way to our Northern climate.  I looked at the sky, put my sunglasses on and did a silent "thank you God for this beautiful day" as I soaked in the blessings of this life.

And then my phone beeped.  It was a simple message from my sister who lives in Boston.

"Just heard that the Boston Marathon was bombed!"

I sat and stared at my kids as I immediately began the round of questions in my head...who would do this?  What is happening to this world?  Will my kids know what it's like to live in peace?

As I looked at my oldest son, who had now climbed up to the top of his favorite tree, I wondered...what does it feel like for God to look down upon his children and see all that we have become?  If I feel such sadness as I try to get a grasp on how my children are growing up, what does our Heavenly Father feel when He sees the choices we've made and the ways that we've disregarded Him?  How much must He ache when He looks down upon our fallen world?

I pulled my thoughts together and gave a half smile as my daughter came bouncing around the corner with sidewalk chalk...

And then I embraced one of the greatest treasures I've been given in this life.  The treasure of being a mother.  The treasure of loving something so dearly that I would give anything to make their world better...safer...happier. 

If I can love something so much, how much more does our Daddy love us?

What would you say??

For years I've had to ask myself one question....

What would I say?

You see, my middle school and high school years were not the best years of my life.  I know on some levels, we could ALL echo that sentiment.  Who can really say that they love the years filled with horrible mood swings, zits the size of your head and the drama that can only be found when you pack hundreds of teenagers in one building...Lord have mercy.

My biggest problems in high school stemmed from the simple fact that sometime during my sixth grade year, I began to buy into the lie that the most important thing in life was to be popular.  Everything I did revolved around this concept and over time my entire personality was shaped around this lie.  I became someone I wasn't and in turn I became very self centered and bratty (just ask my mom). :)

Since moving back to Gloversville, I have asked myself many times, "what would you say?"

"What would you say, Cyndie, if you ran into that girl who you know you were not always kind to?  You know, the one who was pretty mean herself and who always seemed to be alone.  The one who didn't smell quite like you and looked like she was always angry.  Sure, maybe she wasn't always the nicest person to be around, but what would you say if you ran into her today?"

All those times when I've thought about that question, I've pictured two girls particularly.  I couldn't even remember their names, but their faces were etched in my memory forever. I'll be honest, on occasion, I've actually seen one of them walking down the street as I've been driving by.  I've been tempted to stop but I've always faltered as I've thought about how weird it would be for me to swerve over to the side of the street to talk to a person I haven't seen in 20 years (and whose name I can't even remember)!

But over the past 3 years, I've known in my heart that 'one day' God would put me face to face with those ladies and I would finally find out what I would say...

That day finally came. On just my 4th day of working at C1, I did a 180 as I looked over my shoulder and saw a girl rushing past me as I stirred my coffee.  Her head was down and she looked like she was avoiding all eye contact.  Her clothes were worn and she looked as though she hadn't slept in ages.  She headed straight into the ladies room and didn't come out for over 20 minutes.

I ran over to Donn and asked if he knew that lady.  He said her name was Sue.  That's right!  It was Sue!  He said she'd been coming into C1 for the past few months.

My head raced as I attempted to find something to do to keep busy in my strategic location by the coffee bar. I figured the minute she came out of the bathroom, she would head for coffee.  I knew my time had come...

Finally, she emerged from the ladies room looking as though she had brushed her hair and maybe washed up her face. As she walked over to the coffee bar, I looked her in the eyes and said, "Sue, is that you?  Do you remember me?  I went to school with you."

She smiled a pleasant smile and said, "Hi Cyndie!"

We exchanged small talk for a bit and finally I said to her, "Sue, I need to apologize to you.  When I was in school, I was a stuck up snob and I may have said or done things that were mean to you. I'm really sorry about that and hope you can forgive me."

She looked shocked.  She then went on to tell me about how dark her school days were.  She said that in some ways she was always relieved to arrive at school because when she was home she was beaten so badly that school was at least a place to escape to.  But then, when she would get to school she was bullied so badly (not by me, don't worry) that she would become incredibly angry and start fights often.  She thinks her last year of school was ninth grade.  In her eyes, her school years were the worst years of her life.

I asked her what she was doing now and where she was living.  She looked down at the table and said that she was living on the streets. She had been living with a man who beat her so she grabbed her purse and left.  She had slept for the past two nights on a bench in the 20 degree weather and snow.

My heart broke as I thought of how blessed I am to do what I do.  For 3 1/2 years, I have been back in Gloversville and I've not run into this girl.  But in 4 days of being at C1 full time, God brought her back  into my life.  She's rough around the edges and she still doesn't smell like me or act like me, but He loves her just as much as He loves me.

And I can now say that I have a new friend, whom I knew years ago, but never knew.  Her name is Sue.  Where are the "Sue's" in your life?  And what would you say??

Walk On Water Video Link

Thanks to my wonderful little sister who has a passion for making videos, we now have a new 3 minute introduction that can be used when we present the 150/40 challenge to churches and individuals!  It's nice having talented family members! :)


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6CauIiBXQu8

New Beginnings!

Well, how can I describe the last few days?  Surreal is a perfect word.  I pulled up my calendar on Friday, March 8th and had the strangest feeling as I saw the ONLY item listed...

"MVH Last Day"

For the past 3 and a half years, I could have only dreamed that God would allow us the opportunity to serve alongside of one another in ministry.  To be honest, in many ways, I doubted that God would ever open up that door again for me.  It seemed that ministry may be a part of my past life that had now been replaced with the full throttle business world.  I had many ups and downs over the past years as I've grieved the loss of ministry, but I had finally come to terms with the life that God had called us to.  I accepted that He had given me the job I had as a blessing for my family. 

And then He turned our world upside down again...

 And so, here I now sit.  In my "new" office with the sounds of 10 or 15 men in the other room drinking coffee, shooting pool and talking about God.  It's a sweet sound that I could have only dreamt about a few months ago.

And I feel grateful....overwhelmed...and completely humbled.

This will not be an easy road.  It has already had many ups and downs and our faith is being tested on a moment to moment basis, but we are certain of the calling and excited to see how God moves!

And so we wait on Him and we pray that as we wait, He will reveal more of Himself to us!

 

The Next Big LEAP!

 

Three years ago, our lives changed forever.  The familiar became a distant memory and faith became more than just a word…it became reality.

In the three years since taking that initial step, we have experienced just about every emotion a person could imagine...joy, awe, confusion, fear and complete adoration.  But through all of the emotions, one thing has remained constant.  No matter how unclear things around us may seem; our calling has only become more vivid. 

Three years ago we came to a realization.  No matter how crazy, how absurd, how ‘out of the box’ it seemed; we wanted to follow God.  We would rather pack up all our belongings, put the house up for sale, resign from the jobs and move across the country than say ‘no’ when God called us. 

And we’re so glad He gave us the faith to trust Him!

It seems like this would be a nice happy place for this little story to end; right?  Not so much…

You see about a month ago, God began to unveil another calling to us.  Over the past three years, C1 has gained enough individual and church support to pay its monthly bills as well as a small salary of $800 per month to Donn.  We’ve been happy with this scenario and have felt blessed that God has also provided a great job for me that allowed our family to pay our monthly bills.  All was happy…all was good…until …

One morning, as I sat at my desk devising the annual fundraising plan for my employer, something hit me right between the eyes…I spend 40 hours every week raising money for another organization!

As I took a deep breath and tried to understand what God was saying to me, I watched as some pretty big puzzle pieces fell into place in my mind.                                                                              

Since moving here, we have never had time to put into helping C1 get fully funded.  Donn is too busy with the growing ministry and I’ve been swamped with my job, ministry and keeping our family going (as is evidenced by the lack of activity on this blog over the years)!                                        

For the past 18 months, Donn and I have prayed that God would lead a woman to join him at the store front to help “even out” the ministry that he doesn’t feel comfortable doing as a man.                                                                                 

For the past 2 months, our Board of Directors has been praying for someone to come alongside of Donn to help carry the load that the day to day ministry entails. 

 I could hardly believe it.  After all the months that we’d prayed those prayers, I had never realized that God was calling me to fill those roles!  As I sat at my desk that day, I knew our world was about to shift again.

Over the past month, we have prayed tirelessly over this new calling, sought much wise counsel and begged for God to make it clear.  And every time we prayed for wisdom; one thought kept coming to mind; “Do you have the faith to leave the paycheck behind to pursue Me?”  Gulp.

And so, I say again: Three years ago we came to a realization.  No matter how crazy, how absurd, how out of the box’ it seemed; we wanted to follow God…

Three years later, we’re trusting in that same Sovereign God as we take another absurd step into the unknown.  Knowing only one thing…that He has asked us to ‘go’.

And so, as of March 8th I will resign from my position as Marketing & Development Director with Hospice and I will  put all of my efforts into keeping our supporters informed of all that is going on here in Gloversville (through newsletters, blog, phone etc.) while seeking to bring C1 to a fully funded status.

We believe that God has big things in store for this city and its people and we believe that He is saying that we need to get all of our financial needs taken care of so that we can focus on what really matters.  Once the finances are out of the way, I will be freed up for women’s ministry, expanded youth ministry and to help Donn with the day to day needs.

Don’t get us wrong…we’re scared out of our minds.  We have 4 precious lives who look to us daily and the thought of not having money to meet their needs frightens the daylights out of us.  But; the thought of  disobeying God when He asks us to ‘go’ scares us even more.  We’ve taken the leap before…we pray that we’ll have the faith to follow it through again.

And here’s where you come in.  If you are currently a regular monthly supporter of C1, then we thank you from the bottom of our hearts.  You have been part of the ground floor of this incredible adventure and we are counting on your ability to continue to partner with us.  We have already factored your support into our budget and we are honored that you believe enough in the work God is doing in Gloversville to be a part of it.  Please pray about continuing to support C1 with the regular amount that you already give.  You are such a blessing.

For those of you who are not regular monthly supporters, this is where we need your help!                                                         

 We are introducing the 150/40 Challenge.

 

 This simply means that we are looking for 150 NEW supporters to come behind us with $40 a month (or higher).  For $40 per month, we can link arms and watch as God unfolds His next steps for this great city and its people.  I can hardly imagine what He will choose to do if we all dive in and take this leap of faith together!  When we reach the goal of 150 new supporters at $40 per month, C1 will be fully funded to both pay Donn a regular salary and continue to pay for the current operations and growing ministry outreach.

And so we’re asking from the bottom of our hearts.  Would you consider partnering with us on this adventure by committing $40 per month?  Of course, as a 501c3 organization, your gifts are tax-deductible.  More importantly, your $40 per month will open the door for God to expand the ministry throughout our city and to those who are hurting.

We are so excited as we take this next step of faith and trust in our Lord to direct the path.  We hope you will join us on this adventure!

For more information, please call 518-725-6058 or visit www.changeof1.com