Quitter...

If you ask my Mom, she would probably tell you that I quit just about everything that I ever started as a child. Who knows, maybe she’s right…

Gymnastics…hmm..maybe 6 months. THEY PRACTICED ON SATURDAYS Y’ALL!

Chess Club…come on; who really wants to be in chess club...I was just there because of a cute boy.

Basketball…okay, really…How tall am I? I was the queen of the potty shot though!

Singing group…actually I stuck with this one for a few years….I think I quit when I finally realized that I couldn’t sing:)!

Piano…UGGH! Enough said!

Band…RIGHT UP THERE WITH PIANO!!

The truth is; I guess I didn’t have the best track record for following through with things. In reality, I think I was just one of those people who loved to try new things.

New adventures everyday!

New people to meet!

I think my mom and dad stuck it out in hopes that maybe I would one day find an actual talent! :)

So, fast forward some 30 years and here I sit today. I must admit, I still love new adventures and I still LOVE to meet new people. Some things never change, I guess.

Although the one thing that has changed is that I now dread the thought that I may start something and never finish it. I guess that all those years of gaining the reputation of “quitter” have finally taught me some lessons. I am now OVERLY cautious about starting anything unless I know that I can commit to finishing it. In reality, I think that is why it took me so long to finally get over my fear of actually using my gift of writing. Now, I am not saying that my writing will ever go anywhere; however, once I committed to actually starting a book, my biggest fear immediately became that I wouldn’t ever finish it.

And this is where you come in…I am calling in the troops on this one.

In less than one month I will be attending my first ever writing/speaking conference through Proverbs 31 ministry. I have looked into attending this conference for years but never felt God saying that the time was right…until this year.

As part of this conference, you are able to set up 2 meetings with publishers to pitch a book (if you have one to pitch). I have set up my meetings and am now working on pulling together a few concrete chapters and a proposal to pitch this book that I am writing about Godly confidence for women. The book is written just the way that I write…nothing fancy..no frills…life stories and hopefully some laughter. It’s pretty much just like this blog.

Here’s where you come in. I am really struggling right now. I have the chapters but they’re far from perfect. I can’t come up with the proposal to save my life and, more than anything, I am finding it IMPOSSIBLE to focus!!

Please, please pray for me!!

I said to Donn this morning that my biggest fear is NOT of rejection…that’s such a likely outcome that I don’t fear it. My biggest fear is simply of quitting. I want to leave it all on the field. I want to put everything I’ve got into this and then walk away knowing that the Lord can do what He chooses. Rejection or not…I want to be able to stand before God one day and smile knowing that I put my entire heart into this thing that He has CLEARLY called me to do.

Sisters, please pray for me as you think to. Pray for the Lord to touch me and use my gifts however He chooses. Pray for me to focus and to give everything I’ve got to this book. Pray for the Lord to use this opportunity to help me grow in faith and trust. This blog has become such a neat community of friends to me and I can't tell you all how much you have blessed my life!

And, for the record…I stuck with the drama team for years…Oh yea, and my dancing teacher actually quit on me! :)